Wednesday, September 01, 2010
Beer definitely calms me down, which is what i really need to do at the moment. Thank god for hoe garden bcos timbre ran out of beer. Can you believe it. Utterly ridiculous.
I don't think i have the right to be upset but somehow i just am. I would have liked to used "pissed" but thats too strong a word to use. Its just....illogical to me. illogical in just about every mfing way. I mean true, just bcos i'd do it doesn't mean everybody would and while its been done before the situation is always different. Times like these are when i apply my skills from army. lan lan suck thumb, swallow it, let bygones be bygones and i guess never attempt, what it seems to me at the moment, foolish acts anymore. Having said that i guess i can understand to a certain extent. Lets just hope my choice to think of people positively and rationalizing it from their point of view in my own words will not let me down like it did last time. Everytime i finish a post i have half a mind to delete it....makes me feel i was judgemental and i if i was i'd pretty much hate myself. Now we can't have that can we. FUCKING hate that i gotta wake up early tml to go to sch which is at the other end of the universe. ARGHZZ..beers effect is wearing off i'm feeling the rage rising again. better not fuel it. shall go n try to sleep. knnbccbmofoposblearghzzzzzzz.
;cause I missed you again at 1:49 am
