i kinda went on a blog surfing spree today. Mostly i read my juniors blogs and their thoughts on the ogl camp they organized. I'm not very old or senior but the things i read just make my heart warm seeing how my juniors mature so much within such a short period and how they've grown. It also reminded me of the good times i had with the council. At the same time it allowed me to differentiate clearly how the one running the camp and the one observing would think. We both have our points its just very different. We gave the juniors a talk on day 2 but its only now i realise how we were somewhat overly critical. That is we were no different from the complaining ogl's just that we were more constructive and reasonable but yet we only pointed out the problems and the possible solutions but not a single word on the good points some kind of morale booster we were huh.

I dunno whether i'm going back is just cos i wanna relive those council moments. Because that's just holding on to a memory. Severely unhealthy. Being just an ogl is rather difficult after what i've been through and the fact that my fellow ogl's aren't my peers. It's like i know im not supposed to say anything liao yet the super cannot shut up side of me does otherwise. I believe i can fufill the role of an ogl given that im naturally bhb so og interaction shouldnt be too tough. Acting as it fine. Having the mentality of one tough. Im not allowed to walk around when i felt like it anymore. haha im not suggesting i ever did.

On a sidenote i want another soccer session but it'll have to be after prom liao..

Went to shop for prom stuff today. walked around quite bit and saw thi piece from topshop. hopefully it's still there when i go back. Dunno if i'm gonna walk around somemore or not. My mind is quite blank now which means theres kinda alot of things that i could be thinking about but my brain isn't organized enough to blog about them today.

On a sidenote channel 8 is finally showing shuang tian zhi zun. i was too young to watch in the past when it first screened. sadly i missed the first half an hour man. that means from now on my satruday's and sundays 3.30-6.30 i'm not free =D.

Busy busy week sia

im back after a long and eventful ogl camp. my 3rd though i wasnt the one organizing this time. Well it really made me think back to my council days our first ogl camp the problems we faced and if ever at all how we overcame them. At least we tried. The many trials and tribulations.

The camp wasn't as fast paced as i thought it would have been. And lets just say the participants are much more,should i say, rebelious less receptive? Well anyway i hope the no. 5s learnt something out of it and that they can apply it to their orientation. It's definitely going to be a more rough ride for them. but anyway i learnt this way of suaning ming by using poker cards..rather interesting.

Theres nothing like spending a night in school sleeping on the study benches. I got my very first taupok experience. A piece of advice. do not retaliate by pinching the people's titties because then they dont support n the full weight is on you.

I woke up today and went to sleep on the sofa in the council room cos i decided to skip breakfast. Only joined in at about 8 plus. I got really wet but it wasn't as wild. And i only learnt half of the new mass dance. I need an idiot's guide man.

After break camp i went to have lunch at popeye's with wenjian, sian wei, shi qi and qiqi. We couldnt finish what we ordered. quite worth lah. cabbed back with shiqi(from tanah merah) and i dropped my phone. Thankfully a kind soul from tpjc picked it up and contacted me. Yeah then i got it from her at around 9 pm. Thank you kind person whose name i forget to get.

Oh yeah forgot to mention i went to have dinner at eatz(halal jack's place) for dinner. I didnt face much problems just that my mum and bro's well done steak.lamb chop had very raw centre at some parts. so much for the 10% service charge. And not a single you are welcome from anyone of them whenever any of us said thank you. It's a small thing but hey they are in the customer service sector.

The things we see, the things we hear, the things we think we know. Sometimes we just feeling like slapping some people for thinking the way they do just as how sometimes we ought to get slapped. Its no wonder we don't want people to know the way we think sometimes. We're not so oblivious are we.

charlene: hmmzzzz =)
willis: count what?
soh: did i mention im hysterical nowadays so i laugh easily? yeah who am i trying to kid.

Went to play soccer with the guys in the morning..now i'm like a lobster. red as can be. stupid sun so much uv rays. i need a polarizer suit man. It was damn tiring lah im still feeling the after effects.

After a short rest(like 15 minutes)that it was dinner with the councillors at pastamania tm before watching beowulf at. About beowulf, if you're into good graphics watch it, if you're into good movies you might want to choose again. The graphics were how should i put it? I couldnt tell at first whether the characters were animated or real. In different scenes it could have been either.

haiz super tired now so not much mood to blog. I'll be off to ogl camp the next few days so i'll disappear.

In the long run how would things have been. Im beginning to see what kakak told me. And i may not be the only one. Its not easy and for her to have succesfully done so i salute her.

I haven been reading other blogs very often. Mostly cos some blogs don't get updated as fast. I shall make it a point to read my friends blogs more often and update my links. And to update my facebook after i get back from camp. Trying to weed procrastination out of my life. Which means i ought to go pack my bag now and not continue to procrastinate.

Oh on a random note, my player keeps playing the same song after i chose a song and i have no idea why.

A visit to tm, a vist to pastamania.
Into the theatres, into the toilets.
Past minitoons, past the pink fungus dude.
A trip down memory lane, another obstacle overcome.
Each journey has its ups and downs each with its perils and rewards.
Before during after, the greater the belief the greater the satisfaction.
One is never disappointed if he has belief.
Do you believe?

Zhihan showed me this. its rather interesting. The song on facebook.

And due to the powers of youtube comes variations

It's over. Finally. haiz..dunno what lies ahead of me but i'll just have to wait and see..

Shuo dao yao zuo dao zuo bu dao jiu bie shuo ying wei na shi cheng qiang. Ni hui cheng qiang ma?

haiz that means i have to work to pay for my mum's holiday...her wedding anniversary. (stupid dad never does anything to commemorate it so the burden's on me)

well..tomorrows the day, the day it all ends. The day where it would have ended. Theres this little voice in my head that talks to me nowadays. no im not going crazy. Sometimes it makes sense sometimes it makes me sick. "Talking" to myself isn't a very fun experience all the time. I don't ever remember a time where it was actually.

It's not that i can't get accustomed to it. After all i spent a greater deal of my life as such. But i guess its different. I believe i went through the same period after o's. just that after o's school started in jan. Circumstances are rather different. I think i'm the kind that needs it just that it's always been supressed. Where i went to helped the supression. Intriguing but whos to say i'm right on it.. who knows. If you're wondering why things are so vague well its meant to be. If you can get it. good on you, shows u know me. If you're sure bravo if you aren't, come ask, i might just provide the answer. lalalala...heres a song from mr daughtry.

Chris daughtry - home.

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.

I said these places and these faces are getting old.
So I'm going home.
I'm going home

This post is dedicated to tag replies.

Mich: ever heard of cause and effect. before one can shop one must work. or atl east beg(from parents)
Hot aircon: bu yao lian call yourself hot aircon. but calling my cool heater is the truth =)
soh: im not exactly done. wah 26th thats extremely late. poor you. you wanna go for a run look for me yah. council quite hardcore exercise what.
timo: confident sia. we'll c about it arh.
charlene: wah you good. come ta my board just to make sure i didn't throw away your stuff haha

just some spoofs..quite old liao lah but oh well

very sian nowadays so i'll be back here more often..i dunno whether thats a good thing or a bad thing. on a sidenote i cant see my stupid tagboard again for the umteenth time. and my com is like going to die soon. its starting to restart itself at times. but at least its not totally screwed and slow that i cant use it.

You huo bu neng shuo de gan jue bu hao shou man. Anyway i've realised this long ago but just saying it now cos im bored that some rules that apply to us doesnt always apply to the one enforcing it on us. Or asking people to do what we don't. Or scolding people for the things we do when we do it ourselves just that we're oblivious and would rather die than to admit it. In my case it would be asking my bro to throw the thrash and saying he doesn't help out around the house enough. Well at least im not oblivious to it. but it's just more energy efficient to get him to do it cos i can get him to do things better than i can get myself to do it. perfect excuse huh.

I just washed the dishes for the first time in what 2 or 3 weeks. Though lets just say the amount of dishes this time is pitiful. But at least now i can sympathise with my mum when she complains about how long it takes to wash dishes cos she bought a crappy brand of dishwashing liquid(mother lemon) Ironic how it has the word mother in it when my mum's the only one who does dishes(most of the time). And not that im on roll or something cos i love my mum but haha sometimes the things she says/does quite laughable. For example legs are to be kept away from the coffee table when her coffee's there n cups are not allowed on the table cos her/our legs might accidentally hit it. And i swear it has nothing to do with the fact that its a coffee table. Oh well just one of the many incidents.

Anyway my dad was saying something about us being predictable just now. Something to with what we said which i'm not too sure but im guessing its "later lah" or "anything lah" or "wait wait wait". I was telling him how predictable it is on how i'll wake up everyday i try to sleep in. i hear the sleep melodious but rather deafening voice of homo sapien mumsicus. if you don't know who that refers to i have nothing to say. Just like how i have nothing to say when hsin mei says something 75% of the time. I mean yeah so ita 9am 1 pm but its not like i had a choice..right??(maybe i ought to sleep earlier). Oh n if someone tells you the tv/computer volume is too loud n yet you can hear them perfectly clearly(meaning they're louder) isn't that rather..ironic? haha

Speaking of species i heard of this erm..guy who when asked about the species of a bird(whose scientific name and i think picture was given chose to fill in the blank with the word

"birdius" (like how every autobot must have the word maximus or something behind it)

brilliant. bu kui shi wo men s101 de. thats all im revealing about his identity. point to note, glen isn't considered a guy in our class. so that leaves....

Oh n iheard h1 chem they asked about the mass of an electron or something which is actually in the data booklet if im not mistaken. I think cambridge will get a good laugh or shock when they see answers like zero or negligible(which i heard have been given) or when they read some of the answers i wrote in my papers when you come out of the paper its not funny lah its more of like "crap crap crap!!" but now since whats done cannot be undone its "hahahha" instead.

i can't help but emhasise this but theres only 1 more paper left!! stupid physics mcq delay my celebration. Good things are worth waiting for. whats more worth it than the end of the darn a levels. This of course takes into the consideration that i no longer have to fear the end of a levels.

Haiz 10 years down the road who knows where i'll be. Probably working my ass off. Then im might look back and think of the life i had(studying is a life???). Would i miss the life i had or the fact that i had a life. hopfully my friends will still be around n we can meet for a round of soccer. But i think it's preferred we stay away form street soccer courts then because i still remmber how we laugh at that uncle we see now and then at the court. oh well hopefully i'll see the bro's soon. nothing much left to look forward to. nothing much haha who am i kidding. as sir william wallace said in braveheart FREEDOM!!!

aww i just saw this dog on tv...labrador..he doesnt look as cute but he know how to act shy and act pitiful too together with the whine and all. I think cats look cuter but dogs act cuter. Oh well i think my little bro asked my mum before for a dog(you know every little kids dream, i think i'm still a little kid) she said something quite cliche. We cant take care of ourselves much less a dog. Oh n maybe cos my dad is afraid of dogs(according to my mum) so what a good way to prevent them from visiting me in the future huh(don't look at me like im the evil son).

But yeah the show shows us how interesting and obedient and (fill in the word) but then quite evil arh make the dog go through all that. I think dog shows are evil too. Oh well some parents do that to their kids too. Train them up at some skill(sports or music) and then send them to competitions. I remember my mum told me i've been in a contest i didnt need training for. The chubby angmoh kia(thats me when i was still a small kid) got consolation for just appearing. What can i say i've alwayss been a looker. LOL. and thick skinned huh.But anyway imagine the torture i went through under all that limelight. Okay truthfully i can't remember(duh) and i think the me then probably didnt know any better. Maybe i can use this as an excuse to sue them in the future. Putting me through so much psychological turmoil. Anybody wanna sue their parents? we cld do it together. Oh come on it was just a thought.

Spent the day slacking...watch heroes. didnt touch physics at all. I think my current state of mind is the same as that last when when i watched the movie i am sam for the first time. Hard to explain lah but then it comes and goes. yet to figure out what causes it though. 1 more paper...its taking ages to come..

"nobody can tell you who you are, you're just going to have to figure it out yourself"

hmmz i was watching heroes and someone said this..its thought provoking for me. haha now i got alot of space now that my a's are over since i have just 1 paper left. oh well back to heroes. maybe i'll come back later

If u understand chinese you should really read that link in my last post...its deep. yet not totally correct. I wanna be a matt parkman man. then again that might defy the way things were meant to be. yeah so im still a child a heart wishing i had superhuman powers but who doesnt..yah lah you don't lah =D

自古多情空于恨,此恨绵绵无绝期.

Stumbled upon this site. Self explanatory though chris,justin,abby,khyrul,julian,eugene,benedict might have some problem. big problems. Of cos people like hsin mei,siauling and qiqi wun have a problem. cheena sia. okay that was mean but oh well.


http://zhidao.baidu.com/question/3138103.html

Watch this quite some time ago..just though i'd put it on my blog..i have no idea how that guy does it lah.

Stupid commercials







The government should do something like this to make people learn chinese..chinese cool doesn't work.




the jap talent show..quite a good performance




Crazy ping pong





Jap soccer with shaolin soccer music

I've always loved this song.

光良 - 童话

忘了有多久
再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久
我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了什么
你哭着对我说童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂
从你说爱我以后我的天空星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

你哭着对我说童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂
从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

我要变成童话里你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

我会变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

一起写我们的结局

我很想相信童话故事是存在的.
但是现实是多么残忍的

===END==

The end is near...I can throw away all my pens cos now i only need to use my pencil and eraser. oh and calculator.

Im not afraid of screwing up m sleeping system but my digestive system..heck thats something i dun wanna lose sia. I've been very tired recently..time for me to get a good rest tml and just for a moment stop thinking about anything and everything..time to reset and get my body back into normal condition

For the benefit of the genral public i'll translate..rather loosely cos my head kind of aches now.

Wei le bu shang gan qing nan ting de hua wo jiu bu duo shuo le. ye jiu shi shuo yi xia de hua yi jing hen ke qi le. Wo xian zai zhi dao de dong xi bu bi yi qian duo hen duo. Dan xian zai wo hui bi jiao yong ke quan de jiao du qu si kao wo suo ting dao de, wo yi ba yan jing cha liang le. Wo peng you dou zai bang wo cha yan jing. Zai wo xu yao zhi chi de shi hou wo peng you dou zai. Zhe jiu suo wei peng you hu xiang yi kao ye shi peng you zhe liang ge zi de jin sui.

For the sake of not making the relationship worse i shan't be too mean with my words. That is to say what ever is said is already said with an objective point of view. What i hear now and "know" now isn't much more than in the past just that now im more objective with the things i see and hear. My vision is clearer now. My friends all help me clear my vision. They've always been there when i've needed them. This is known as support from my friends. The supposrt given is also the essence of the word friend.

Ni ke yi shuo wo shi wei le buo tong qing cai hui chu ci xia ce dan ni shi you yan bu shi tai shan tai kan bu qi wo tai kan bian wo le. Wo suo fan de zui bu yi ding bi ni shao. Wo ken ren zui. ni ne? Qi shi wo bu xi huan shuo she me ni ni wo wo de dan you shi bi yu nai he wo cai hui zhe me zuo. Ying wei wo ren wei tui xie zhe ren bu shi da zhang fu suo wei. ou er wo ye hui shi ge xiao ren dan wen shi jian you duo shao ge ren ke yi cheng ren ta mei zuo guo kui xin shi.

You can say that it is for the sake of seeking sympathy that i do the things the way i do. But that would be to belittle me. Our "sins" are on par. Im willing to admit my mistakes, are you? I don't really like to use the words i and you so much. They sound defamatory but sometimes im left with little choice and pushing the blame around isn't the way to go. But im only human. i erh too. i can't be a saint. Whoever hasn't done something that he regretted(kui xin shi)


Shi jian shang mei you yi ge ren shi yong yuan dui de. Jiu suan shi li guang yao ye yi ding fan guo cuo(xi wang wo bu hui wei le ze ju huo er bei zhua qu zuo lao) Ni jue de ni fan guo cuo ma? Zhi cuo neng gai shan mo da yan. Zhi cuo le tan bai de shuo chu lai bu shi wei le buo tong qing e shi wei le qiu yuan liang. Shang xing shi he bie ren shuo bu shi wei le buo tong qing, shi wei le zao zhi chi. Zui jue de ji zi du li de ren jiu shi zui bu du li de ren. Fan er kan qi lai zui cui ruo de ke neng shi zui jian qiang de.

No one in this world is always right, not even lee kuan yew(i hope i don't get thrown into jail for saying that). Do you believe you've ever done something wrong? Know one's own mistake and one will be forgiven/enlightened(not too sure). Admitting one's mistake is not to gain sympathy its to seek forgiveness. Sharing one's thoughts when one is sad isn't seeking spymathy, its seeking comfort and support. The more independent one thinks he is the less independent he is. The stronger one thinks he is the weaker he is. Those who appear the weakest might actually be the strongest.

Zuo ren yao yin shui si yuan, bu neng en jiang chou bao suo wei shan you shan bao e you e bao bu shi bu bao shi shi chen wei dao. You ren dui ni hao ni jiu suan bu hui bao ye de xian chu yi dian xing shang ba(show some appreciation i translated quite literally). appreciation comes in many forms and the worse place to leave it is in your mind. A sparkle in the eyes is all that is needed. it doesn't even take up much muscle power.

One must remember his roots and cannot repay kindness with animosity. So the saying goes the good will be blessed and the evil be cursed, its not that the "judgement" isn't carried out, its just not the right time yet. If someone is good to you if you don't repay it in favor a small sign of appreciation is more than enough.*continue with english part*

Wo you yi ge xing nian, wu lun yi ge ren duo me dui zhe shi jie mei xing ren, duo me dui she hui yu wo men shen pang de ren mei xing ren wo men dou bu yong he bu ying gai shuo shi mei zi ge dai you se yan jin qu kan mei yi gen ren, xing li xiang ta men yong xing bu liang, hui dui zi ji bu li. Na shi yi zong pan jue.

I have this belief that no matter how much lack of trust one has in the world, in those around around us we cannot and shouldn't look at them through tinted glasses, thinking that they're hatching some plan(when they're nice to you) and will only bring you harm. or rather one shouldnt have that doubt. not at this stage of our lives. That to me is a judgement.

You xie shi bu shi shuo zuo bu dao. Wo xiang xing ren de xin di hai shi shan liang de er qie wo ye ceng jin qing yan mu du guo ni na ge ci bei zhi xin. Dan you yu wo hai shi ge ren, ye you wo de guo cuo er zhe xie guo cuo shi de qing ju gai le, ci bei de ni you bu jian le. Wan mei de ren shi bu chun ai de. Ying chang zai ni na mei you xing ren de xin li chang ze yi ge ren men ying ai kan jian, ying gai ren shi de ni. Wen ti shi ni ren wei ni shen pang de ren zhi de rang ni kai kuan ni de xing, rang ta men kan dao yi ge ying ying yue yue cai hui chu xian de ni. Do you have enough trust and belief to be yourself or continue. Hiding behind whatever the world sees. Its not just about being yourself its about being seen as yourself The world does not judge you because they do not see. The world judges you because you refuse to let them see. If if you believe it serves no purpose to let the world see. then well thats another disussion for another day.

Its not that it can't be done. I believe in the goodness of humanit and i've witnessed that compassionate and trusting heart of yours before. But due to the fact that i am still human and i am not perfect. my flaws made things change direction. The question is are the people around you worthwhile enough for you to open your heart to the world. not to seek fame or fortune but for the whole to truly see you.*continues with english part*

Ru guo xian zai de ni shi zhen zheng de ni, wo ye mei she me huo ke shuo. Dan wo you yi ge xin nian, wo xiang wo men xian zi suo kan dao de zhi dao de xiang dao de ni bu shi ni ying wei wo kan de qi ni. You xie ren hui dui wo shuo wo tai xing ren ren le, tai kan de qi bie ren le(wo bing bu shi zai kua da zi ji) but i rather mistrust someone bad than not trust someone truly worthy of it.

If the you people know is the real you i've got nothing to say. But again i have the belief that what we see isn't what is real because i think positively enough. Some people might say im too trusting and see good in people that does not exist(im not trying to blow my own horn).*continue with eng part*

Typing out the english part kinda makes me see some "flaws" in this "essay" but oh well.

Haha i think too much for my own good. overcomplicates things alot sometimes. Sometimes things are just best kept simple. Its not easy one's got to try doesnt he. hmmz is thinking too much about reasons for anothers actions judgemental. i think it is huh. i should start learning how to mind my own business man lol...oh well

I learnt something new today again. or rather i learnt it, and then i embraced it. And now its to fufill it. It is what i would call the zui gao jin jie. shant say too much this is still a public domain afterall. Xi wang i not just san fen zhong re du.

When u cry i cry with you, when you smile i smile with you. When you laugh i laugh at you. That is why you're called my friend. Be it you are Big and chinese(johnnie) or not so big and not so chinese(chris). So in this trying period. If not for yourself then smile for me your ever so hot loser of mj and hot kb kia of vs =)

Physics 3
General Paper 1
General Paper 2
Chemistry 3
Math 1
Math 2
Physics 2
Chemistry 2
Economics 2
Economics 1
Chemistry 1
Physics 1

Got the first song from joy the next few from the powers of youtube. I put those that are okay lah. got some not so good but you can go youtube and view yourself.

Hmmz...i've learnt a great deal of life lessons recently. That alot of concepts can be applied to more than 1 part of our life. Like take for example out studies. If we tried out best while the results don't match what we wanted we'll still feel we could have done better or maybe even feel the exam was unfair to us. And some of us don't do anything such that if we get a good results whoopdedoo. if we don't its fated and we can come up with a list of excuses lyk theres no point studying since i predict they'll always come out something i don't study or just give up. One can only really feel the pain if he put his heart and soul into it anything less than that would be you not trying already. I understand that now. And remaining hateful and spiteful of the so called unfair exams are for children below the age of 10. So i'm assuming everyone who reads this is already over 15 so let go people and look whats ahead of you.(i sound like tml we going to collect to ur results)

The important thing after an exam successful or failed is to know what you want to do from there. Exams don't just refer to academic exams but "life exams" aka every obstacle thrown in your way. Sadly because of the slacker that i am when it comes to academics such trauma applies not to my studies(but i don't come up with excuses lah i'll know i didnt try hard enough). I hope that means my exams will turn out well.

But regardless of what kind of exam it is we need time and be willing to spend time on it. For time will heal what reason cannot

eh my song list power sia like quite relevant most of the times. i shall make story out of them. Since you've been gone i've had to move on and im here without you , right here waiting . I shall be like like superman and find somewhere i belong and not continue hanging by a moment. (as my blog song goes). This is how you remind me. I used to think "you are my destiny" but no longer will i wonder will you still love me tml. I won't totally classify today as a bad day though. Was i addicted? Who knows but i know you won't change your mind (this sentence was abit forced) and neither will i.

Dreams don't always come true. To live in them would to be equivalent from running from life. we all need to run once in awhile but it aint healthy in the long run. Time to wake up dude. Its about time i did. Oh well yet another landmark in my life. Now to wait for the next adventure since every end is but a new beginning.

he ought to get shot but i cant help but agree with him. its hard. but we all learn don't we. Suo wei shi chen wei dao wo men you yuan wu fen. Ye xu yi hou hui you yuan you you fen. ye xu. But life means so much more to that. i'll have to pick myself up and continue walking forward(i 'll try). i wld rather do so with someone hand in hand but life has in store for us many things that are unpredictable and just waiting for me to explore it. End of a's here i come.

bu zai hu tian chang di jiu zhi zai hu ceng jin yong you. i heard that somewhere off the tv. who ever said it ought to get shot. Sui ran shuo shi qing yi dao le yi ge wo mei ban fa kong zhi de qing ju dan shi haiz..

It's not a certainty. yet.......wei she me you xie ren ke yi hao hao de talk about it erh wo zhi neng jie shou ding ju.

i need some serious remodelling man..arhh disappointed in myself. Some i think i deserve to be shot. But anyway math was quite good. i mean i could do all the questions. maybe lose 1 or 2 marks cos of presentation aka i tried to smoke steps..yes smoking in a math paper. well better than smoking in some ulu corner.

the 9 o clock show on channel 8 quite funny sia. This ultra mushy guy was saying something about his ex being an onion. As time passed the more he understood her the more the layers peeled until he reached the core when he realised onions don't have hearts and the peeling only made him tear. Whay a concept. of cos he got screwed by ihs current girl cos he kinda treated her like a substitute for the ex. according to her thats 1 thing women hate the most. Not like we didnt know that already huh.

anyway now theres still enough reason to think otherwise. but perhaps in 2 weeks or so some beliefs won't hold anymore and then what? start lieing to myself? the true test begins when the war ends

junyu
25/11/89
when I stared up at the sky,
do you know what I saw?
I saw your name,
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