Sunday, September 26, 2010
Well it's the end of this roller coaster ride, it'll take sometime for the motion sickness to wear off but i'll get there.
在这短短的几个月，我得到了短暂的幸福，但也不知不觉中失去了几个朋友。 直不值得我还不知道，但愿这都是老天的安排。就为了让事情对你来说简单点，我决定手放开。
蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你
你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像倾盆大雨 碎了满地
在心里清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事
;cause I missed you again at 3:16 pm
Hmm i've learnt more today than i have in the past few months. No i'm not talking about studies. Thinking back, its been a roller coaster ride. When ur at the top you don't know when the final moment of descent is coming and when it does reaches the bottom in mere seconds. Just when you think its over you start climbing again. But seeing the big picture, at the end of it all, its all worth it.
;cause I missed you again at 12:57 am
Monday, September 20, 2010
Date 20 september 2010. 24 days after a particular post, what i foresaw or rather what i thought was bound to happen sooner rather then later has just given me one mighty tight slap across the face and a low blow to the groin. You might say since this is the 4th time it'd hurt less. Yes 4th im an idiot arent i. Its true, it is less. But if it dropped from 100 to but 99 on the pain index its not much isit. Thankfully jcrc stuff kept me occupied today or i'd be in a mess. If i end up doing alot of other things i normally would hesistate to do(like tutorials) just to distract myself then perhaps its a blessing in disguise. Whats a man to do really. Just what the hell am i suppose to do...haiz...
;cause I missed you again at 12:20 am
Saturday, September 04, 2010
Well school finally begins. although i haven't actually had lessons yet. Having travelled to ntu 3 days in a row this week all i can say is thank goodness for hall. Still a little lost with the whole esystem and notes collection but the boat will right itself when it reaches the bridge. Coming weekends are pretty packed so thankfully i have wednesday's to myself. All aboard the studying train woot woot!!
;cause I missed you again at 5:10 pm
Wednesday, September 01, 2010
Beer definitely calms me down, which is what i really need to do at the moment. Thank god for hoe garden bcos timbre ran out of beer. Can you believe it. Utterly ridiculous.
I don't think i have the right to be upset but somehow i just am. I would have liked to used "pissed" but thats too strong a word to use. Its just....illogical to me. illogical in just about every mfing way. I mean true, just bcos i'd do it doesn't mean everybody would and while its been done before the situation is always different. Times like these are when i apply my skills from army. lan lan suck thumb, swallow it, let bygones be bygones and i guess never attempt, what it seems to me at the moment, foolish acts anymore. Having said that i guess i can understand to a certain extent. Lets just hope my choice to think of people positively and rationalizing it from their point of view in my own words will not let me down like it did last time. Everytime i finish a post i have half a mind to delete it....makes me feel i was judgemental and i if i was i'd pretty much hate myself. Now we can't have that can we. FUCKING hate that i gotta wake up early tml to go to sch which is at the other end of the universe. ARGHZZ..beers effect is wearing off i'm feeling the rage rising again. better not fuel it. shall go n try to sleep. knnbccbmofoposblearghzzzzzzz.
;cause I missed you again at 1:49 am
