Tuesday, November 13, 2007
For the benefit of the genral public i'll translate..rather loosely cos my head kind of aches now.
Wei le bu shang gan qing nan ting de hua wo jiu bu duo shuo le. ye jiu shi shuo yi xia de hua yi jing hen ke qi le. Wo xian zai zhi dao de dong xi bu bi yi qian duo hen duo. Dan xian zai wo hui bi jiao yong ke quan de jiao du qu si kao wo suo ting dao de, wo yi ba yan jing cha liang le. Wo peng you dou zai bang wo cha yan jing. Zai wo xu yao zhi chi de shi hou wo peng you dou zai. Zhe jiu suo wei peng you hu xiang yi kao ye shi peng you zhe liang ge zi de jin sui.
For the sake of not making the relationship worse i shan't be too mean with my words. That is to say what ever is said is already said with an objective point of view. What i hear now and "know" now isn't much more than in the past just that now im more objective with the things i see and hear. My vision is clearer now. My friends all help me clear my vision. They've always been there when i've needed them. This is known as support from my friends. The supposrt given is also the essence of the word friend.Ni ke yi shuo wo shi wei le buo tong qing cai hui chu ci xia ce dan ni shi you yan bu shi tai shan tai kan bu qi wo tai kan bian wo le. Wo suo fan de zui bu yi ding bi ni shao. Wo ken ren zui. ni ne? Qi shi wo bu xi huan shuo she me ni ni wo wo de dan you shi bi yu nai he wo cai hui zhe me zuo. Ying wei wo ren wei tui xie zhe ren bu shi da zhang fu suo wei. ou er wo ye hui shi ge xiao ren dan wen shi jian you duo shao ge ren ke yi cheng ren ta mei zuo guo kui xin shi.
You can say that it is for the sake of seeking sympathy that i do the things the way i do. But that would be to belittle me. Our "sins" are on par. Im willing to admit my mistakes, are you? I don't really like to use the words i and you so much. They sound defamatory but sometimes im left with little choice and pushing the blame around isn't the way to go. But im only human. i erh too. i can't be a saint. Whoever hasn't done something that he regretted(kui xin shi)Shi jian shang mei you yi ge ren shi yong yuan dui de. Jiu suan shi li guang yao ye yi ding fan guo cuo(xi wang wo bu hui wei le ze ju huo er bei zhua qu zuo lao) Ni jue de ni fan guo cuo ma? Zhi cuo neng gai shan mo da yan. Zhi cuo le tan bai de shuo chu lai bu shi wei le buo tong qing e shi wei le qiu yuan liang. Shang xing shi he bie ren shuo bu shi wei le buo tong qing, shi wei le zao zhi chi. Zui jue de ji zi du li de ren jiu shi zui bu du li de ren. Fan er kan qi lai zui cui ruo de ke neng shi zui jian qiang de.
No one in this world is always right, not even lee kuan yew(i hope i don't get thrown into jail for saying that). Do you believe you've ever done something wrong? Know one's own mistake and one will be forgiven/enlightened(not too sure). Admitting one's mistake is not to gain sympathy its to seek forgiveness. Sharing one's thoughts when one is sad isn't seeking spymathy, its seeking comfort and support. The more independent one thinks he is the less independent he is. The stronger one thinks he is the weaker he is. Those who appear the weakest might actually be the strongest.Zuo ren yao yin shui si yuan, bu neng en jiang chou bao suo wei shan you shan bao e you e bao bu shi bu bao shi shi chen wei dao. You ren dui ni hao ni jiu suan bu hui bao ye de xian chu yi dian xing shang ba(show some appreciation i translated quite literally). appreciation comes in many forms and the worse place to leave it is in your mind. A sparkle in the eyes is all that is needed. it doesn't even take up much muscle power.
One must remember his roots and cannot repay kindness with animosity. So the saying goes the good will be blessed and the evil be cursed, its not that the "judgement" isn't carried out, its just not the right time yet. If someone is good to you if you don't repay it in favor a small sign of appreciation is more than enough.*continue with english part*Wo you yi ge xing nian, wu lun yi ge ren duo me dui zhe shi jie mei xing ren, duo me dui she hui yu wo men shen pang de ren mei xing ren wo men dou bu yong he bu ying gai shuo shi mei zi ge dai you se yan jin qu kan mei yi gen ren, xing li xiang ta men yong xing bu liang, hui dui zi ji bu li. Na shi yi zong pan jue.
I have this belief that no matter how much lack of trust one has in the world, in those around around us we cannot and shouldn't look at them through tinted glasses, thinking that they're hatching some plan(when they're nice to you) and will only bring you harm. or rather one shouldnt have that doubt. not at this stage of our lives. That to me is a judgement.
You xie shi bu shi shuo zuo bu dao. Wo xiang xing ren de xin di hai shi shan liang de er qie wo ye ceng jin qing yan mu du guo ni na ge ci bei zhi xin. Dan you yu wo hai shi ge ren, ye you wo de guo cuo er zhe xie guo cuo shi de qing ju gai le, ci bei de ni you bu jian le. Wan mei de ren shi bu chun ai de. Ying chang zai ni na mei you xing ren de xin li chang ze yi ge ren men ying ai kan jian, ying gai ren shi de ni. Wen ti shi ni ren wei ni shen pang de ren zhi de rang ni kai kuan ni de xing, rang ta men kan dao yi ge ying ying yue yue cai hui chu xian de ni. Do you have enough trust and belief to be yourself or continue. Hiding behind whatever the world sees. Its not just about being yourself its about being seen as yourself The world does not judge you because they do not see. The world judges you because you refuse to let them see. If if you believe it serves no purpose to let the world see. then well thats another disussion for another day.
Its not that it can't be done. I believe in the goodness of humanit and i've witnessed that compassionate and trusting heart of yours before. But due to the fact that i am still human and i am not perfect. my flaws made things change direction. The question is are the people around you worthwhile enough for you to open your heart to the world. not to seek fame or fortune but for the whole to truly see you.*continues with english part*Ru guo xian zai de ni shi zhen zheng de ni, wo ye mei she me huo ke shuo. Dan wo you yi ge xin nian, wo xiang wo men xian zi suo kan dao de zhi dao de xiang dao de ni bu shi ni ying wei wo kan de qi ni. You xie ren hui dui wo shuo wo tai xing ren ren le, tai kan de qi bie ren le(wo bing bu shi zai kua da zi ji) but i rather mistrust someone bad than not trust someone truly worthy of it.
If the you people know is the real you i've got nothing to say. But again i have the belief that what we see isn't what is real because i think positively enough. Some people might say im too trusting and see good in people that does not exist(im not trying to blow my own horn).*continue with eng part*
Typing out the english part kinda makes me see some "flaws" in this "essay" but oh well.
Haha i think too much for my own good. overcomplicates things alot sometimes. Sometimes things are just best kept simple. Its not easy one's got to try doesnt he. hmmz is thinking too much about reasons for anothers actions judgemental. i think it is huh. i should start learning how to mind my own business man lol...oh well
