Sunday, July 29, 2007
*warning bombardment of explicitives ahead*
( i've tried to cut down but u'll see it more than necessary)
i had no idea what i wanted to blog about when i came about. And when i told my fucking brother (albeit unkindly as usual). it just kind of flowed. im just going to fucking rant again. blog rants has always helped to calm me down. so long as no cheebye comes along later on to tell me how awfully unecessary my post was then i get ticked off all over again at the asshole expecially.
Anyway our conver went like this.
him: can u go to your room please. i just need to use for another 5 minutes."
me:wtf u need me to goaway for.
him: please
me:wtf are u doing that i cannot be around.
him: im writing a letter
me: thats all i need to know aint it *walks away*
him: *looks behind*
me: i cant see anything damn thing from here so hurry up.
he was either sending some love letter to his girl(probably the one who called this afternoon) or something about the coffe table losing its top. And very nicely my tagboard is inaccesible half the time i try too. so fucking nice of it.
poor friends of mine. they have to deal with a very short fused me nowadays. mr hon already got the wtf sign. mum says im moody 3/5 of days. haha its actually everyday just that theres a 60% chance u'll catch me in one. so there u go simple stats 60%, 3/5 days.
I don't like throwing tantrums. I'm somewhat given the right to do so to a certain extent bcause i have nice friends but i don't like it. Its just like pented up all inside. some poor old soul already got some of it but not all of it is gone and its damn hard to get rid of. And it continues building up. btw this is a thinking to myself kind of post where i think the whole world is against me even though i know it isn't but just let me be yah. you don't want to become the cheebye/asshole.
i think i need to kill someone before i can be appeased. who will it be? genocide? thats interesting. no i cant, i'd lose a good friend though he wouldn't exactly mind so long as i leave his rich god dad and family alone =) ok maybe i'll like give them immunity. phew im still able to smile. see how some people have such a strong positive influence over me. its called brother hood man.
U know the worse that can happen now is some dickhead reads this post thinks im mentally unstable and im of to a few session fo counselling. LOL i rmb radhiah said i needed some for supporting piracy. but come on we all do we just don't say it. Oh wait or maybe my fucking ceiling fan will fall on me.
I apologise to the next few people whos heads i bite off. But if i do so cos of something you said or did it meant that normally i might have but there was a lower and small possibility i would have since i'd probably have laughed it off but since theres a 60% chance of meeting me in a bad mood(according to my mum) then i do apologise. then again there are things that will never piss me off. like erm people(im not specifying this time for worry of my life) say things that make them appear(but they may not actually be) blur worse i'd do is vommit blood and commit suicide but not bite their heads of. those people are quite safe actually since almost everything they say is blur hahaha.
Worry not im not at the suicidal point yet be it cos im not that stupid or have enough balls. i will kindly inform u when i do. All the above is and probably will always be part of me until somebody powDerful enough to change my personality/character. Which means that if from this point on you wish to talk less to me or treat me less like a friend or what not feel free to do so. i'd appreciate it if im' told but its not a compulsory. And no i do not wish for any such thing to occur and i can only hope that nothing does*points to right "hates: losing friends"*
Oh n to end it all of i fucking hate it when icant see my fucking cbox. its fucking irritating. especially so when u know there something there to read(which is not often). Fucking computer.
Tag replies:
naive person: yes that refers to you who believed there would actually be tag replies. i just fucking said i cant see the damn cbox didnt i. you're forgiven. and i hope you forgive me who for having said all that i have though i might not have meant even half of it(i wouldnt know im not thinking straight). you and every else who actually read.
p.s. no i wasn't serious about not talking to me about this fucking post. but u better hope u know what ur saying. if its nice good. if its not nice, better be sure ur the one who can get me out of this mess or u'll be part of it too.
p.p.s. i apologize f over the next few days i swear more often then i should. it helps release tension. yes saying fuck helps. to me anyway. cheerio.
