Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Some people say I think too much. But then perhaps thinking too much allows u to understand e urself better. A few days ago i was wondering - randomly as usual - whether I liked winning or hate losing. I tink I hate losing. Call me a sore loser. But then perhaps its just applies to people I feel I should win. Arrogant? Maybe…so be it…
Maybe its also becos of that trait that If someone thinks or does things a certain way that I find totally irrational and regardless of what I say the “crisis” persists I get rather displeased. More so when I’m given that idea that my opinion matters more that most others. That I guess is a result of the arrogance that is supposedly there. Then again it could also mean I’m a stubborn bull who is unable to accept something I don’t understand. But is that stubborn or just being rationale
How do u truly know that u care about someone. Maybe when its u feel that that a person’s happiness is all that matters even if u disagree with what he or she does. So when this doesn’t happen. What does it mean? Does it just prove the point that all humans are selfish? Well they are to a certain extent. Would u ever do anything that doesn’t benefit u at all. Then again it’s all subjective isn’t it. Anyway…maybe u just dun care as much as u think u do. And yet again, why? But then who knows. Like I always say some things are not meant to be explained and the quest to find an answer to such solutions to unsolvable question will only result what some call “thinking too much”. In my terms it’ll be wasting time solving a unsolvable question. Irrational huh. Ironic aint it. How I hate irrational things and do them at the same time. Yet another flaw of the human mind.
Many times in life we have to make choices. Some point in ur life u will make a wrong move and sometimes, u’re given a choice to right that wrong. But then maybe(I seem to use this word quite a lot) what may seem right at 1 point particularly that point of time may not seem right at another.
Then again perhaps blogging today and particularly publishing this post might yet be another wrong move(though blogger is totally discouraging me cos its abit screwed). And if its not abstract enough, which I hope and think it is, then what kind of a choice will I make. I really wonder..i really do. I'm becoming what i despise. And i hate that.irony yet again. Biggest irony is that i find it quite irritating at times reading emo posts...and yet...what can i say man...
p.s. i just made the text same colour as the background for fun joy peace and laughter. something i sorely miss.
Josh:Whatever..
Chris: he's biased duh. dun u wonder y??
Josh:lyk i said ur biased..u n ur princess abby. at least mine is more organised...or perhpas that cos not enough people tag on my board..hahaha
;cause I missed you again at 11:04 pm
