Saturday, March 11, 2006
For some reason i'm feeling freaking pissed and sad at the moment..
Everything just seems to be going wrong
Can't have a darn bloody 4h soccer outing cos people are freaking hell not free(a whole bunch of them)
i hear people who have started to study like what the hell? expected but i didnt have to ehar about it...im not blaming the person though...just that studies are stressful n i rather not think/tok about it
My bro like freaking turned off by the fact that i get more allowance than he did. Like its my fault i spend more. like i have a freaking choice. am i supposed to not go out with my friends n be a freakin anti-social like him. or am i supposed to go out and not spend any money. he may have issues of his own but if he doesnt sharre them with anyone then he can't blame me for not understanding what he's feeling.
Feeling more and more distanced from certain friends..im making new friends but hardly...so i dun c y i distance from my old ones...there isn't even a need for me to balance...not yet anyway..yah so well people are out there balancing old and new...im not even inthe choice to be balanced bahz...it just sucks to feel left out and all alone..
Hardly talk to anyone nowadays...seeing that their kinda occupied liao lah...and cos people i was close with all splitting up. even those in mj. i c them for at most 30 min in the morning before assembly. Yah and as they had things like cg outing..my cg..with only 5 people had no need for it lah. Hopefully the bio and phy 4h2 class merge lah than class will be bigger. I prefer a 24 person class to a 15 person class.
To be a little more optimistic at least im at mj. I can't imagine myself being someone else...yes just after a mere 2 months...but seriously besides that...life quite sianz..so besides school theres nothing much to look forward to lah. i say school n not 4h soccer outing cos i dun even know if it'll materialise...
life sucks...but i'll make it better...i'll try at least
;cause I missed you again at 11:56 pm
